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Forsaken by cinquain Forsaken by cinquain
To abstain from sin when one can no longer sin is to be forsaken by sin, not to forsake it.

- St. Augustine

. . . . .

Well, I'm not about to try to hide the fact of the matter. I nearly gave up on this piece about four times. I was at the point of wanting to break my stick of charcoal in half and tear this drawing to shreds. This is, by far, one of the most difficult drawings I've done in years. But here it is. Somehow we both survived the ordeal.

A little bit of background: I've always admired Alex (*bionic7) as an artist. Honestly, his work was one of the reasons I bucked up and joined dA years and years ago. This drawing is done from a self-portrait Alex once had displayed in his gallery. To this day I think it's one of the most hauntingly beautiful, oddly tender pieces I've come across. I've loved the picture dearly for years, and that's probably why I wanted to tear it to shreds as I worked on it. Fear of failure, maybe. Fear of disappointment, most likely. (Is it disappointing?) Either way, the piece has been a long-standing inspiration in drawing, in writing... I can only hope that justice has been done.

This is somewhat of a follow-up to one of my most popular pieces, A Prayer For Pardon. [link]

Thank you, Alex, for allowing me to work with you yet again.

And here's to hoping that you all like it... because if not... hell, I don't know. No comment. And speaking of comments, if you don't like it, can you keep it to yourself this time? I might kill you, otherwise. (Seriously. Too much time spent. I'm on the edge of the edge.) :crazy:

FULL VIEW please! I beg of you!

Charcoal on 90lb paper, freehand.
Original piece: 16" x 20"
Minor curve adjustments and border in PS.
Model: Alexander Casteels aka *bionic7
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EmmaBovy Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014
I'm just in love with
pikachu365 Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012
absolutely beautiful. i like how dark it is. very meaning full words. i am impressed with the charcoal aswell
Homercat17 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I love it, Good work! brings sad emotion!
AbSeNt-PiKacHu Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2011
epic (:
liewe-heksie Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
WOW no words to describe it
liewe-heksie Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
this is so beautiful!!!!!
Chamirphin Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2011  Student General Artist
damn, this picture is so expressive it really moves me.
incredible good work!
Zola-is-a-Bleach-fan Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I just love your work its so... WOW! I don't have words to express how good this is!
WickedMydnytePoison Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2009
Friggin Beautiful job
He has breath taking eyes
I bow to you!
Nil3E Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2009
You did a wonderful work,totally awesome !
Eyecandy407 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2009
Holy F**king sh*t, I thought it was a photograph!!!
I was wondering if I could use this piece as a reference for a drawing I want to do soon?? Great piece =3
Maikkimon Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2009
amazing! :+favlove:
and stunning gallery too!
Alex-Aigis Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2009  Student Interface Designer
this is so beautifull...the expression...waw your really good :)
meljo94cool Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2009
this is a drawing???

omg! i thought it was a photo!!
meljo94cool Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2009
awww yes!! i love looking at ur gallery and pics like this especially!! I'm kinda obsessed with boys with dark around the eyes. yum. :) very nice work!!
LeoNeal-CP Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2009  Professional Digital Artist
Ur work is wonderful, it' amazing how real it looks. =) I love it!
manga-meloney Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is an absolutely gorgeous picture...
Vampiressartist Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Really beautiful! What's your medium?
Xiaomai Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
Not like it? How could you think such a thing? It is a masterpiece. Ver very very good.
And I thik you did well to not throw it away.
Highlordi Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2008
sdkhg,srg to hell is THAT charcoal!
thats the friggin charcoal of the gods your using :cries: i cant do that everrr
future-artist-9 Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2008
you have been featured here [link]
Tormented-Body Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2008
Truly, an amazing piece of art. It is magnificent....
Larxii Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2008  Student Traditional Artist
I thought it was a photo too...

And he looks like a totally cutie~ [ Apparently emo boys are cute to me. ] * w *
SatanikQueen Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2008
!!!! 0_0

It's a drawing!?!!!1
I thought i was a real human!!! 0_o

I'm out of words .. -_-
bobblehead-kate Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2008
ohmygod. you are AMAZING. seriously.
spacegirl92 Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2008
This is absolutely stunning. I nearly cry each time I look at it. There's so much depth within this image like a melancholy innocence. It's tiptoeing the line between real-life and artistic creation and the more I look at it, the more it sucks me in.

All your hardwork definitely paid off. This is amazing.
CaFFyXP Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2008
I'm so glad you DIDN'T give up. It's SOOO PRETTY
UntilTheStarsFall Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2008
im at a loss for words. amazing job!
Okirimono Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2008  Student General Artist
Omg the eyes.....your art is always so's awsome
twistedxsketches Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2008
:o Such detail.
Lovely work.

Innocent-raiN Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2008  Professional Filmographer
I love it when you draw peices like this! Beautiful expression and lighting :heart:
gocealice Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2008   Photographer
just grate
adavesseth Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2008  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Very strong drawing there!
insomniacs-nightmare Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2008   Traditional Artist
I am in awe.

I can't even LOOK at a stick of charcoal without getting covered in black dust, so to even begin to imagine how much patience and skill you must possess to create such beautiful work is almost beyond me.

Seeing images like this is such an inspiration.

Zend99 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2008
Allllllmmmoooooosttttt.... as hot as you.
wahay Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
Holy shit, Cinquain. This is incredible.

I don't know if my eye is doing all the work here or not, but it looks like the skin is really soft and glowing, and whatever is going on with the lips is perfect, as well!

I don't like this—I love it. Thanks for fighting with it this whole time. :)
rageofthematrix Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2008
I love your work so much :)
Kaeldra-1 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2008
haunting, like all of your work tends to be. I can always look at a thumbnail and know its done by you. I love that about your art :) Nice job.
Dessibelle Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2008
SOOoo beautiful :heart:
Delta-Two Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2008
*whistles* cute I LOVE IT
kamcalste Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2008  Hobbyist Writer
When I saw this...(I've never run into your artwork before)...I thought it was a photograph. And then I started reading your Artist's Comments! Oh my god...this is such an amazing piece!
julienpier Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2008  Hobbyist Photographer
And the struggling worthed it :P!
Fatmalovestodraw Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2008  Professional General Artist
beautiful. outstanding. breath-taking :D
kiba-blackfang Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2008
Your work is truly awe-inspiring. It's so realistic but at the same time it is...I can't really think of a word or phrase to explain--so hauntingly disconnected from real life, maybe?

When I look at this drawing, I can feel all kinds of emotions pulsing through every line. It's as if you are able to give a physical body and presence to the emotional aspects of life through the medium of charcoal.

This piece is beautifully heart-wrenching and I'm so glad you didn't tear it up.
kiladreams Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2008  Hobbyist General Artist
I can see this frustrating you, too. But it's beautiful, no matter how much you might have hated it in the process..
Yeah, I tried charcoal, and I am constantly marveling at your skill.
edmidt Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
wow this is too amazing...

You can BARELY tell this is a drawing.. the only give-aways are the strokes in the hair and the fine grain in the skin tone :D

I really love this piece, and I always loved bionic7's portraits. I agree with you, it's like he's revealing a secret

I love it :)
banpaiya Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2008  Professional Writer
I should imagine that you have nothing to worry about when it comes to haters. Honestly, anyone who could look at this and see aught else but beauty (a great and terrible...) is seriously fucked up in the head. Or perhaps, simply, the artist. I personally always hate my art. And it seems that you don't *love* this, so... Regardless, I do. Love it.
papersouls Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2008
there arent words for this.....absolutely beautiful!
Nedra19 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2008  Student General Artist
number1supermodel Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2008
this is haunting...i thought it was a photo at first
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